Lesson 101 (A.I.B)

Why is this happening exactly?

Everything in my world has suddenly come crashing down on me, and It’s pretty much my fault. I have this feeling in my stomach that won’t go away no matter what medicine I take or how much sleep I get. I always feel hurt now. I like to think that maybe if I was different it would change, if I was more trusting or kind. But no, unfortunately no matter what I try it makes no difference. People already assume who I am or what I think and I’ve just gotten too tired to change their opinions of me. I’m not who I used to be and I have no idea who I am now, I feel completely lost In The world. Not good enough. Not fair enough. Just living here. Just here. Why do you say everything is my fault or that it’s all in my head? In reality, I don’t think you understand what you’re doing. I try to devote myself entirely to you but then again, reality hits and I realize you won’t want me forever. You don’t want me forever. That breaks my heart because I feel like you’re my soulmate and without you, I dont know anything else. I only want you and that’s the only thing I can’t have anymore. And well, I’m sorry. It’s all my fault… Isn’t it?